It's alright, I'm checking out

I can't figure out which one hurts most; knowing I made a fool of myself or simply knowing the truth.

Sometimes you do things just because your instincts tells you so. Sometimes you do things just because others told you to do it. But no matter how much I depend on others' say, it always wounds down to my instinct that has the final say.

There are a lot to reason out on why I thought my instinct was right. But then again, there are a lot of reasons that doesn't make perfect sense. I went for it anyway, because it just felt right.

Sometimes I ask myself why it's easy for others, and not me. Truth is, I know the answer to my own question already. An answer that will make me look at a brighter patch out of the darkness. And that's how I pick myself up and thought the tears is just not worth it...