long post? maybe next time lah.

Just when things were spiraling down for me, they came spiraling back up? Life...i am beginning to understand you (yet again).


Praise to Allah. Hush hush for now. Hoping for the best, and hoping it will indeed come true.

Time for a new Frontier

I am starting to think that this is not worth it. That I was denying the fact that I'm actually at the loser's part of the bargain. The experience is good, the name is good, the boss I'm reporting to is good, but behind the curtain, there are more deception than I could ever imagine.

One of us has 'succumbed' to a greener patch (but the green doesn't contain much of the darker shade). They say it takes time to get there. But that is only to get to a pale patch? How long to get to the darker shade of green? Am I willing to wait?

I am even thinking...is this legit? Is third party a way to cut cost? How could they use us?

Maybe it's time for a new frontier. Baba warned me how bad this is. But I was hard-headed and was determined to jump to my first job. He's right. After all, he is the Veep of HR of an honourable company. I still remember how unhappy (and did I see a flash of anger?? no, not to me lah. to whoever is responsible) when I laid out the contract and benefits. I guess he knows best.