Funny how my blog seems to be a dump of mostly the sad stories of my life. And here I am again feeling all low....
How you became so attached to me, I haven't got a clue. It's not what I wanted, it's certainly not what I prayed for. Because I was scared that if I put a 100% want, and constantly prayed to be with you, I'd be putting my heart on a thin thread, anticipating the fall. But what good does it make?? Despite all these, despite how hard I tried to push you away, the feelings refuse to butt out!
Not many people know of the story of us. Who would want to share a sad ending right? Oh, I forgot we didn't even start!
But congratulations, you somehow have the power to make me cry now and then; in the shower, right before sleep, or anytime when my mind decided to pick on you.
I thought I needed a diversion. To see things/know people in different perspectives. But diversions didn't help. I'm far too weak to let you go.
It was a devastating revelation I encountered today. At the back of my mind, I always wondered how I would react if you found someone else. Oh it turns out that it's the usual dealings; with pain and tears, I turned to my blog. I wonder when I could get over you. Because that'll be the day this pain will ease away. That'll be the day, my heart will be free.
The question is: Is hate the last resort? I sure hope not. :(
How you became so attached to me, I haven't got a clue. It's not what I wanted, it's certainly not what I prayed for. Because I was scared that if I put a 100% want, and constantly prayed to be with you, I'd be putting my heart on a thin thread, anticipating the fall. But what good does it make?? Despite all these, despite how hard I tried to push you away, the feelings refuse to butt out!
Not many people know of the story of us. Who would want to share a sad ending right? Oh, I forgot we didn't even start!
But congratulations, you somehow have the power to make me cry now and then; in the shower, right before sleep, or anytime when my mind decided to pick on you.
I thought I needed a diversion. To see things/know people in different perspectives. But diversions didn't help. I'm far too weak to let you go.
It was a devastating revelation I encountered today. At the back of my mind, I always wondered how I would react if you found someone else. Oh it turns out that it's the usual dealings; with pain and tears, I turned to my blog. I wonder when I could get over you. Because that'll be the day this pain will ease away. That'll be the day, my heart will be free.
The question is: Is hate the last resort? I sure hope not. :(
