Dream interpretation

I was in the shower just now. According to Mummy, night shower is not a good thing. You could catch a fever. It's been 2 weeks I have been feeling like 'catching a fever'. Hmmm...whatever lah Mummy. I love you still though. :) Plus, I felt all sweaty after playing Wii Boxing with Liyana tadi. Oh, they were here since petang to eat Mummy's Nasi Dagang. And I should mention this...I love their coming-overs.

Fresh nye rasa lepas mandi! Boleh tidur terus kot! But hair is still wet. Moreover, I'm here now to write about a sudden inspiration while showering just now - Dreams interpretation

You see, while I was shampooing my hair just now, this particular dream kept coming into mind. Elevator(or 'lifts' as we Malaysians usually say). The dream involves me inside an elevator for quite a number of times. I was in the elevator, stopping on floors. I could not recall what building it was. the weird thing is, I was alone. And it was at night. creepy betul kalau fikirkan yeah? but, if I remember, nothing bad happens. fuuhhh..nasib baik. It would have become a nightmare if something bad happens, right?

Did some googling on dreams interpretation. At the top of the searh, Google throws me a link to this site: www.dreammoods.com

here's the description:

Elevator
To dream that you are ascending in an elevator, represents a rise to status and wealth. You may have risen to a higher level of consciousness and are looking at the world from an elevated viewpoint. If the elevator is moving upward in an out of control fashion or it crashes through the roof, then it indicates that you are being catapulted to a position of power in which you do not yet know how to deal with. You are afraid of the new responsibilities ahead for you. Descending in an elevator, suggests that you are being grounded or coming back down to reality. It also signifies setbacks and misfortunes.

In general, the up and down action of the elevator represents the ups and downs of your life. It also symbolizes emotions and thoughts that are emerging out of and submerging into your subconscious. Alternatively, the dream may have sexual connotations.

To dream that the elevator is out of order or that it is not letting you off, symbolizes that your emotions have gotten out of control. It may be a reflection of your life or your career. You are feeling stuck in some aspect of your life, whether it is your career, relationship, etc.

To dream that the elevator is moving sideways, means that your efforts are counterproductive. You are going nowhere in your work, relationship or other situation.

Hmpph..I'm half sure that I was going upwards. Ok, lah, boleh YEY! however, as i said not 100% sure. so not a big YEY kot. yey je.

Sometimes it took a few days for me to remember a dream. It's like suddenly, out of the blue, a certain dream emerge in my head. Have you experienced that? Tell me I'm not alone!

Eh, boleh buat research lah pasal dreams. I'm sure in this era, research on dreams is done very thoroughly. I bet there's some kind of a machine where they could capture your dreams? (I blame Hollywood movies on this thought). If not pun, a machine that could analyse your dreams through brain activity. Such an interesting subject to do research on kan?

Recurring dreams is another weird thing. I do experience it. But what do they mean? At the top of my head, repeated dreams:

1. I'm in a basement carpark, trying to find a way out.
2. Me living in a house with many residents. Like a dorm. Location is always the same.
3.

*yawn again*

let's sambung this post nanti. mengantuk nya! kita pause dulu ye...

I'm a keeper, not a thrower

So i was being so un-me petang today. went through my room and kemas what needs to be kemas ages ago. okay, maybe part of it was because guests are coming tomorrow (Note:Mummy will prepare her famous nasi dagang. yumm!). And i found many things that reminds me of what happens in the past few months(includes 12 months ago). You see, I keep things. you name it...

1. movie tickets
2. concert tickets
3. MPH receipt for a novel "Love the one You are With"( nanti dapat rebate tax maa..as if i have ever paid tax lah...gaji pun berapa je..but i have a feeling next year is my maiden year to pay tax)
4. Maybank withdrawal receipt. correction: receiptsssssssssssss
5. photos when i was 12 years old (somehow they were on my dresser. piled up waiting to be kept back into albums)
6. birthday card from Mummy and Baba
7. wedding invitations of dear Adelaide friends
8. Last year's raya card from Anis
9. This year's raya card from Pijah (the only 2 raya cards i got this year. the other was from my CIO Dato Razali. He gave every Muslim a raya card. coolness betul.)
10. expired MPH vouchers (bummer!)
11. OBM photo.
12. Folded for who-knows-how-many-times OBM song sheet. no i didn't turn out singing "I've got the OB spirit, up in my head!". coz it's just no fun singing it alone...
12. orchestra itenarary that i went with 'a' guy. (i did mention the past months kan? months can easily be years ago also). ok, this brought back painful memories, which i don't feel like talking about right now...
13. a cloak keychain from Sweden. thanks kakak dear!
14. MNG blouse tag. Yes, i keep brand tags too.
15. Maxis bills
16. a brochure to a resort in Pulau Kapas.
17. a Chinese stamp with my name in Chinese letters. Thanks abg hafeez dear! which reminds me of u. i miss you, and kak niza, and Umar chomot. :(
18. the receipt to A Famosa bungalow that i went with Raimi and the girls. brought back memories of our trip to Melaka (last year kot). That bungalow ada private swimming pool siott. and we sure had a great time lepak by the pool...and gossip lah :P
19. MARA slip that says i'm 4 months overdue. oopss. but dah settle those overdues. months ago dah settle. i paid in advance summore after that!
20. a post-it note that says - "There's a kind of love that gives you the courage to be better than who you are. One that makes you feel that anything is possible.." When i found it, i stuck it straight onto my magnetic board.
21. banyak lagi...but i'm too tired to list it all down. (remember i have to wake up early tomorrow. guests are coming. I should end this post soon!)

So you see why i call myself a keeper? i KEEP things. little things, big things. things that will REMIND me in the future what i did. what i bought. who broke my heart. when exactly i had a good time with girlfriends. why i need to pay bills/loans on time. how i ended up going to Yuna's concert (Liyana had a lot to do with it). and more importantly, why a photo taken 13 years ago was brought out, piled on my dresser.

I don't ever call them junks. all these bits and pieces are memories i truly cherish, even the painful ones should be reminded...so to keep myself from doing the same mistakes again.

if i had just throw all the receipts away, that happy journey to Pulau Kapas with Camy and Raimi might have been erased from a portion of my memory. Who knows? I might have forgotten the fact that love DOES exists after all. it just never lasts as long as i wanted it to be.

All this also reminds me that I need to delve on ways to practising smart storage in my small room ;). I believe IKEA has the answer.

Good night all!

It's alright, I'm checking out

I can't figure out which one hurts most; knowing I made a fool of myself or simply knowing the truth.

Sometimes you do things just because your instincts tells you so. Sometimes you do things just because others told you to do it. But no matter how much I depend on others' say, it always wounds down to my instinct that has the final say.

There are a lot to reason out on why I thought my instinct was right. But then again, there are a lot of reasons that doesn't make perfect sense. I went for it anyway, because it just felt right.

Sometimes I ask myself why it's easy for others, and not me. Truth is, I know the answer to my own question already. An answer that will make me look at a brighter patch out of the darkness. And that's how I pick myself up and thought the tears is just not worth it...

The cycle

Strange things are happening to my cycle. If you haven't notice, I'm from the XX chromosome... otherwise known as a female...a woman. Put 2 and 2 together, you can guess which 'cycle' I'm talking about.


It's worrying me, and I have no idea where it's coming from. I don't think I'm in a state of stress. Er, totally not. Mummy suggested that maybe it's because I've been soo excited about the new job. Errr...yes I am happy with the new job...but 'excited' is not the word! Hmmpph, last time this happened was when I was in Form 4. I was homesick in MRSM Jasin. S0 that explains the earliness. And that time I couldn't be bothered. Wobbly menstruation at 16 is not a big deal. Did I say wobbly menstruation? gee..where did that come from...

It's not just the earliness...ada lagi points which I don't think I feel like putting into words right now. beginning to think that readers might find this post grrrrross and personal. If u are a female, u'd understand. Guys? I don't think so. tapi kan...sooner or later, guys have to understand cause at some point, u will be living with a woman kan? kan? :)

Let's see.. at the top of my head, I can list down 2 reasons why the cycle is behaving badly..

1. after seeing not-baby-blue guy. Hormones racing, maybe? Hey, I am not to blame cause he does look like he has the body of Jacob Black from Twilight. His face is like Chuck from Gossip Girl. In case you don't know, I have a crush on these 2 actors. Maybe seeing these characteristics on one person, in real flesh can do wonders to my hormones. Hahahhaha...
2. too much intake of Chocolate purchased from the recent Langkawi getaway. No further comments on that.

It's also bothering me because I can't sembahyang now. bila dah lama tak perform prayers, rasa tak sedap hati, seriously. :( Could this is be a test and lesson about Allah S.W.T nikmat to me? the nikmat to do ibadah? Pls Ya Allah, can I have the nikmat back?

Ever since the abnormal cycle, mood swing also happens. pastu rasa 'down' pun sometimes ada.

I hate these feelings.